Monday, March 28, 2011

guttersnipe

dedicated to remind all you of Nina’s path (a character by Heitor Dhalia, the Brazilian filmmaker), and of Raskholnikov’s principle (in Crime and Punishment, by Dostoevsky)
… inside this complex labyrinth of roads lives a great part of the city’s population, whose existence is ignored… (excerpt of Lima Barreto’s Clara dos Anjos)


he scares you… his gun’s powerful enough to shoot you down… and his words, slashing to tear down whatever… he spends his time just hanging out at his stuff… his shit… and bucks… he could blow chunks right here… you’d clean his floor… you work for him… it’s sucking all your energy… but you’re just one of the pack to be burned out… no way to blow off some steam… that’s his great deal… to turn you a basket case… you could get bonkers about his condition of a fat cat… ain’t no good nohow… but you don’t, you’ll just put the case on the back burner… he’s in the position to kick your ass… and so he does… all the time, he kicks your ass… you, and all the fucked-up ones around him, are always about to crash… there’s no way to jump ship ‘cause this is the deal… to kick your ass… and to laugh off your worries, your losses, your own stuff… damn it… he just bears down on you from behind… or from all sides?
he doesn’t scare you… his power is not a strength… he’s weak… when he opens up his chair next to you, you have the guts to unveil him… he’s a goofy… a fraud, squandered in trivialities… a jerk, he’s a turd… but powerful… a no-brainer reasoning… the cycle of power… just common if you nailed him screwing up a riffraff… it’s so his scene… left and right, so his scene… and you are told to not give a damn ‘bout it… that’s the big deal… to not give a fucking rat’s ass ‘bout it… that’s the big deal, but not for you… you mustn’t dig it… it’s not fine and dandy with you… time to get cracking? he’s just always trying to hide that you’re in a bind… your kaput… and yada-yada-yada… will you kick the bucket? you — the loser? me — the nutcase? even though, I’m not a space cadet, don’t wanna be like that… we’re being lied to… and ripped-off… not in money… not in land… but in the right to dream…

3 comments:

Larissa said...

What de fuck!!! Amiga, me sinto no direito de comentar em português, pra eu me expressar melhor.
Carol, simplesmente muito bom esse texto. Que inglês ótimo! Que escrita fluida! O texto me deixou ser levada por ele... Suas palavras foram me deixando cada vez mais atenta à escrita. Tocante, profundo, verdadeiro, espontâneo. Não sei o que dizer. ADOREI! E ponto final.

maryllu said...

http://www.filestube.com/2d76e62d8e87d0a103e9,g/N-HD.html

Tõ tentando baixar o "Nina".

Adriana Karnal said...

Nina seems to be great...and you, a great writer...I came here
'cause I read a comment you wrote somewherelse, and i got impressed...